You have to believe we are magic...

My Life is turning to be what I always wanted it to be.  I have stopped watering down who I am and actually people appreciate my true nature far more than I was used to.  Actually we are talking about a totally new set of people then the ones a use to surround myself with.  Some remain from the past because either I find the never judged me or actually the have really try to encourage me to go forward and not hide my true self.

Yan is still working on his own issues, dealing with what he needs to at his own rate.  He wishes for me to be happy, to glow, to be energised.  he want to find a smiling me.  He wants to at last see me healthy, and radiant.  And it is happening right now!   I might be found to be egotestical and selfish at times now but you know what, I don't care.  i don't care anymore about conventions, about the look in people eyes that judge me.  I am not gonna let myself manipulated, i won't be misguided, I won't let anyone try to mold me into some sort of statue they judge in their world is pleasing. 


This is my Life, This is me: and yes I am way too wonderful to hide it.